Title: Please Call Me
Author: Suz
Date: 25 October, 1999

Summary: Why do people just seem to disappear when they leave?

Dedication: Ness, cause one of her fics inspired this one!

Disclaimer: I'm serious, they are mine! My Daddy is Mr. McElroy and 
he gave them to me... ain't he sweet?? 
 
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Please Call Me
By Suz
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Tayler,
	How's things? Enjoying looking down on us? Dizzy yet? Sorry 
corny jokes I couldn't help myself.

Why won't you return my calls? Please. I miss you. I can't stop 
missing you. You just severed all ties. Except Helen. She probably 
told you I ask about you every day. Every day, without fail. I think 
she's getting, well a little sick of it. But I *have* to know. I 
care about you so much. It really hurt when you broke it off.
I just wish you'd given us a chance. I think it could, no would have 
worked. If it had been given half a chance. But you didn't give it 
that. That's the only thing I am angry with you for. Just that. 
Nothing else. How could I?
I wish you'd just pop in to see us. Just once. I don't know that 
you'd actually recognise many people. 
Dave left. Quit. Wanted to spend more time with his family. Sort 
things out I think.
Tommy's gone. I couldn't believe it when he left. Gone off detecting 
somewhere in Newcastle. I think he likes it. *He* calls about once a 
week. It's great to catch up. Can we?
He came out for a drink last Friday. Everyone did. Your absence was 
noticed. I know that Helen told you about it. I know that you didn't 
have to work. Why didn't you come? Was it because of me? Or is that 
simply glorifying my status as a friend? An ex-lover? Everyone was 
there. Jeff, Helen, Tommy, Jack, Woodsie, Mick, Dave & Alex even 
came along. It was a great night. I wish you had have been there.
She's having trouble fitting in. Jack's making her life a living 
hell. Mick's trying to help her fit in. Although he's still kind of 
on the rebound from Suzie. They got together again and she dumped 
him like a brick about a month ago. They've gone out a few times. 
Jack is continually hassling Mick about it. He hardly even ever 
talks to Alex. I feel kinda sorry for her really. Filling Rachel's 
shoes can't have been easy.
It's so different. Everyone's gone. Five people have left in just 
under a year. Mick keeps taking bets on who'll be next. My money's 
on Woodsie. Or even Jack, he can't cope much longer I don't think. 
He misses Rachel like crazy, we all do. He wants to talk about her, 
but goes all funny whenever her name is mentioned. The poor guy, he 
loved her so much. A missed opportunity really.
It's just so different. No one even mentions Rachel's name anymore, 
it's so sad. It hit you hard didn't it? Is that why you left? You 
didn't even give me a reason. I thought I sort of deserved one. 
Hardly even got a goodbye. "I'll cya round Gav!" A smile and that 
was it. That was the last time I saw you.
I wanted a hug at least. I thought that if I held you. You couldn't, 
wouldn't leave me. But you wouldn't give it to me. You just didn't. 
You simply walked away. Out of my life. Which now looks like it's 
going to be forever. And that hurts.
At first I thought that it would be fine. You know, you'd still keep 
in touch. Come for a drink now and then. But it's been five months 
Tayler. FIVE MONTHS!
That's nearly half a year. Am I doing something wrong? I just want 
to be your friend at least. I want to spend time with you. I wanna 
be with you. I miss you. I keep going over and over it in my mind. 
Did I do something wrong? Did we take it too fast? I need to know 
Tayler. I can't get over you. You must think I'm an idiot. 
Has Helen said anything to you? She says that she's passing on my 
messages. But I can't understand why you won't acknowledge that I'm 
alive. Is it that you feel the same way? Are you scared? Do you?
I miss you Tayler. Hell I think I even still love you.
I have so much more to say to you. Please call me.
Love Gav.


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